I had this long well written our post but it got deleted. 🙁 I am too tired now to rewrite all of it. I will comment more tomorrow.

I care about you very much. You’ve always been there for me. I am so thankful for all the time you’ve given me, and the things you’ve done. You are an amazing person. I love you, my beautiful redhead. What we had was wonderful, and I will always cherish it.

I hope I can still visit you someday this year. I want to be your friend. I realize that is all we can be now. I know this is hard for you as it is for me. I never want to hurt you, and to know that this has hurt you a great deal I feel awfully guilty. I love you so much, Apollo. Being with you was the most incredible experience I’v ever had in my life and I will always remember what it was like to kiss you and hold you close.

This hurts so much. I am sorry for the pain I caused. I wish I could be good enough for you. I wish it didn’t have to be like this. I didn’t want to be, but there is nothing I can do. I hope you realize this.

I love you. I always will. Always.