Hey there,
Wow that’s really sad. From your entries it certainly is obvious that she meant a lot to you. You seem to be handling things really well though, being a friend to her when she needs it most, but at the same time not ignoring your own emotions toward the situation. It’s good that you have people there to support you. You seem to have good karma points in your future, each day is a new day of healing. Hopefully whatever happens it’ll work out for the best.