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“Goodbye My Love, I Am Going”

My relationship as it was with Ashley ended this afternoon. After quite a while with strife involving her parents, Ashley decided to end our romantic relationship. It hurt an incredible amount, because I do love her very much.
I can’t say I agree with her reasoning behind the breakup, but there’s little I can do to change her mind. A lot of it came down to financial conditions her parents were stressing, and it really seems very foolish to abandon love because of parental pressure and such shallow reasoning. I offered love and devotion, proving both at every turn, and that was not enough, sadly.
I know not what the future will hold for myself and for the relationship Ashley and I now have. I would never want to lose her friendship, no matter what, so I’m going to continue to be supportive of her and be the best friend I can. Perhaps in the future she and her parents will see the folly in this. If not it is still out of my hands. I can only be the best person I can, and I’ve strived for that during these past two years. I must continue on my path, whether it’s with that other soul beside me or not.
This is definitely not the way I wished to begin a new year, but I will have some slight solace tonight. My disciples Wanda and April will be joining me for a night of hanging out. I really appreciate their company a lot, and it will be a comfort to be around good people while I deal with this pain. Broken hearts are lonely time pieces.
In one echo of warmth, Ms. crzyashykitty drew this lovely image of Ashley and I and shared it today. It seems to carry with it some of the very real love we have shared, and it’s certainly beautiful. If only it wasn’t a sad reminder of what has been brushed aside as well. You can see the image by clicking on the thumbnail in the top left corner of this entry.
I’m really worried about Ashley right now. She’s really upset by all of this, and I really fear she may do something to harm herself. I pray she will remain safe and sound. If only there was more I could do for her.

[Listening to: Lisa Loeb – Everyday]
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28 comments on ““Goodbye My Love, I Am Going””

  3. x.x;;

    🙁 I’m incredibly sorry that your relationship came to this end… breakups are horrible… you seem to be taking it very well though (although you could be taking it differently IRL…)… I know there’s not much I can do or say, but I really hope that things turn out for the best, for both of you.

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      1. I deleted it cuz I thought it sounded rude of me, and I didn’t want to accientally hurt anyone’s feelings.

        I don’t know how I’d have a good dream intuition cuz that was the first time I ever really recollect having a dream that “predicted” a situation… 🙁 🙁

        In any case, I, and many of your other friends, are still going to hope for the best. And like person-up-there said, don’t give up hope, either way… something good is bound to come to you. *nods and hands you a cookie*

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  4. I’ve been through enough of them myself to know that it hurts. But, I applaud your decision to stick by her as a good friend. It’s probably the best thing you can do, and it shows alot of courage and your deep love for her. Many would avoid her, to try and lessen the pain. I know I have run from many broken relationships to spare myself more hurt. I truly hope things turn around for you. Perhaps the spring will bring a new change, and one for the better.

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    1. Thanks man. I really do think it’s best that I try all I can to remain friends with Ashley, because she really is a wonderful person who I’m very thankful to have in my life in any capacity. I hope things will begin to improve, though I know the near future with be very hard.

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  6. Hey there,
    Wow that’s really sad. From your entries it certainly is obvious that she meant a lot to you. You seem to be handling things really well though, being a friend to her when she needs it most, but at the same time not ignoring your own emotions toward the situation. It’s good that you have people there to support you. You seem to have good karma points in your future, each day is a new day of healing. Hopefully whatever happens it’ll work out for the best.

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    1. Thanks. As hard as it’s been I haven’t really thought much of how I’ve been handling it, but I’m trying my best to make it go as well as possible. Yes, hopefully things will turn out for the best.

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  11. This drives me nuts to read such nonesense between you two. I’m not going to leave you a big comment like I did Ashley, I’m simply just going to say good luck and take care.

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  12. I know i don’t comment much, but i always read. I can only imagine how you feel and so i’ll send all my best wishes your way and hope that things work get worked out for the best of all involved in the end. Take Care and good luck.

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