I’m sorry this hurt you Ashley. I was very frustrated and angry, and I needed to say that, to make one last try to get through to you. I really didn’t mean to hurt you, just express how I feel.

I still can’t understand how you could have feelings for Jarred strong enough to destroy what we might have together, but you seem set on doing so. There’s nothing more I can do to persuade you, having tried all I can.

I can’t help how I feel about all you’ve done. I feel betrayed, hurt, and mislead and I feel that you cheated, have been pushing me away and are making a mistake in destroying and giving up on what we could have, and I always will. I can’t change how I see this. It’s the truth as far as I can see, Whether you intended to hurt me or not, you did more than I ever have been hurt.

I do wish you could understand how I feel about this. I have thought about it long and hard, and talked about it with the few people I trust enough, and I keep getting the same answers, so I no longer doubt the conclusions I have made.

I do love you very much Ashley. I don’t ever want to hurt you. Having lived through all this hurt these past two months, I wouldn’t wish that pain on anyone, or even a fraction to you. I want you to be happy and safe, and I believe I could help do that better than anyone, but I know you’ve chosen otherwise and I will respect that as much as I can, even though I’ll never agree with it. I do want very much to be your friend since we can’t be more. I love you too much to ever want anything else. It has hurt tremendously, and I’ve felt pushed away lately, so it’s been hard to do that, especially giving up on a romantic relationship with you. I hope you understand that I really do care immensely about you and always will, even though you are hurting me.