You are not horrible or stupid. You are a wonderful person, you’ve just done things that have hurt me and which I believe were mistakes. Everything you say is not automatically wrong. You are right and wrong just as I have been.
I believe I have been very fair. I know that when I allowed my anger to show in this post it may have been too harsh, though.
I hate how you can say I’m not ready for a relationship. I have been the entire time I’ve known you, and I wish you could have seen that. I have been very patient in this relationship, so please don’t think I could not endure a long distance relationship or be ready for one. My faithfulness and devotion should be proof of this, if nothing else is.
I have never wanted to keep you from building yourself a good life, and have always wanted to help you do that. I’m sorry you feel I’ve kept you from that, but it was never my intent. I have sacrificed just as much for our relationship as you Ashley, so please don’t give me any bullshit about you doing more. I have been absolutely devoted to you and always here for you. Please don’t believe things like that, because they are absolutely not true!
I am working a real job right now. Do you think that 14 hours a day, seven days a week (I get no days off at all!) for at least a month, doing very hard physical labour and sweating in the sun is not real work? Fuck, I’m working damn hard, so don’t you dare say I’m not working.
Yes, we have seemed to grow apart, and I hate that. I don’t believe you can lay all the blame on me, though. I’ve felt pushed away by you very much, and have felt you have not understood or cared about what I was doing to try to be able to see you. I worked damn hard to build a good life, and you weren’t understanding of that, and that hurt me so much to be talking with you and have you be so upset while I was working hard. So much of what we disagreed about was tied up with that, and it really hurt me that you would argue so much with me, when I was doing all I could. I’m sorry if there was more I could have talked with you about. I wish we could communicate more even now, but we don’t have the chance to talk often now, with you not able to be online much, and me working all day, everyday. I hope that can change.

I’m sorry you feel a career is so important that it would override love. I will create a career for myself and return to school in time, but I need to stabalize my life, get a job and save up first. I’ve never given up on anything, and it really hurts that you would think otherwise. I wish you’d understand that. It never seemed you could.
Money is not as important to me as it seems to be to you. I’m sorry, but other than being able to see the people I love, possibly travel and have a few small luxuries like books and music, I don’t need a lot of money. I’d rather live a good life, and that’s what I intend to do. If my love, devotion and life aren’t enough for you, I’m sorry, you’ll need to be with someone who cares more for wealth and status than love and compassion. I’m not that sort of man.

I’m sorry you felt hurt by what I said. I still believe you are making a mistake, though, and you did things that felt extremely cruel to me (whether you intended it or not, you have hurt me more than I have ever been hurt). I can’t help it. I feel deep down that you are destroying something that could be wonderful for both of us.