Yeah, it seems to me like she’s just hurting right now. Maybe the more she read about it the more it stung, and she decided she needed a break from it. If reading her journal lately has been any indication, she isn’t in the best state of mind, so I wouldn’t judge her too much by this. Yeah, it isn’t fair to you to be so back and forth, but she likely doesn’t even know what she wants for herself right now.