Work was too hot and seemed to take forever. When I got home Ilea and Dad had the phone lines tied up until 8:15… I was on for 10 minutes and then Ilea disconnects me. I asked my father if he’d be able to drive me to Halifax on Friday but he wouldn’t give me a real answer, just said he might be going to Truro then :/ Yet he said he wants me to be able to have the place I’ll be living at arranged very soon. FUCK!
And they wonder why I wouldn’t want to live in residence? Perhaps so I don’t have to come back here during Christmas for the whole time? Or so I could stay there for the summer and not have to put up with all of this?
They can honestly be great people, and I’m thankful for them, but my family can piss me off a tremendous amount like this. I’m usually silent and passive though… Something I’ve overcome in all other parts of my life other than dealing with my parents.
My mother left for Cape Breton early this morning to take my great aunt Dorthy home. She’ll be gone until tomorrow night… It’s really a relief to have just the four of us in the house again. Having her and my other aunt here seemed like too much of an invasion of privacy.
🙁 I miss Ashley so much… It’s always especially hard to not be able to talk to her when I know she’s had a bad day like today :/ One of the hardest feelings to accept is to not be able to help or comfort the person you love. It is for me, at least.
At least in a month I’ll be able to leave the computer online all night so that I’ll be able to know when she’s on and be able to talk to her whenever she can be on. And of course being able to use my phone will be nice too.
What I want most is to leave this behind and to go where I will be home.
“We are eternal, all this pain is an illusion”