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😀 Yes, I told my mother about Ashley today… I’ve been trying to for longer than 4 months but I finally got the guts and forced myself to not give in to cowardice.

I’d been planning how to do it since the day before. I knew we’d both be home today until she left to pick Ilea up from work so it was going to be my best chance to tell her. She asked me to play a game of dominoes with her around 12. Of course I said yes and we played a few games… Then I came down here to my room to listen to some Poe for confidence and to get the photo…

I walked into the kitchen and She saw that I had the photo in my hand she asked what it was and then I just went into it calmly and without the nervousness I’ve had all the many, many other times that I’ve tried to tell her since I’ve been staying here for the summer. It want something like, “Well, Mom, that’s something I’ve been wanting to tell you for a while now. I’ve had a girlfriend for the past 9 months. Her name is Ashley, she lives in Georgia…” We went into the living room and talked about it a but more… I’m impressed that she didn’t over react or jump to any conclusions. She was concerned that I might be hurt by it in some way but I explained to her how things are and assured her I wouldn’t do anything to jeopardize either my life or anything important in it. I also tried to make it clear that this is something I feel very strongly about and I think she understood. She asked a few basic questions about Ashley, but I’m sure we will talk more about it when she returns from Cape Breton(She’s visiting there for the night and will then be driving her sister to NB tomorrow night). I think it’ll be good for her to have a couple days to think about it… She did say that if Ashley can come here it’d be ok. However, she is uncomfortable with me going to visit her before she meets Ashley, which is understandable.

I’m very relieved that it went rather well. Better than I expected, for sure. She finally knows. It’s a great feeling, it really is, to know that I can just be open about it all at last. It may just be a step towards being able to be together but it feels like a lot more… I feel a lot lighter… like things are falling into place with my life, I guess. I’ll soon have a place to live confirmed and a roommate picked… Starting another year of classes which I’m confident will be much more successful than last year… And I just feel better as a person for some reason, maybe I’m shedding some of my persistant passivity. I can only hope.

Tomorrow I hope to make a t-shirt. I still need to finish up a design for it… Maybe something runic on the sleeves or back… or perhaps some poetry… it will be the very first Frozen Truth dot com shirt, after all, and it needs to be impressive looking 😉

Oh, Nathan said he’s had a lot of responses to the ad on the Dal site he placed and we’ve had one person who seems great. We’ll have to see the rest of the responses to out screening questions but it seems promising. 🙂

Life is good.