Earlier in the day Pegah called and told me she didn’t want to see me romantically any more. 6 days after the first kiss and before actually starting dating. That’s been a bit of a strange situation, but nothing devistating.
I’m feeling in need of a change in general, as though I need to do something spontaneously life changing. Tomorrow I may cook something up.
I’m looking at planning a trip for early November so that I can have my stuff moved out of my apartment and then move stuff to whereever I’ll be living when I return from the trip. I’m not sure where I might end up going, but I have thought about taking Susana up on her offer to visit her in Monterey.
What I want most right now is a nice long sleep, but that will have to wait a few hours.
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Nah, no alcohol on the job for me.
I do understand Pegah’s reasons, I think. As I understand it, her father is a very traditional Iranian, and she’s not yet confortable going against his beliefs and doesn’t want to be deceitful.
As for Susana, I’m not sure what will happen there. It’s been hard to keep up strong communication with each other. I do know that when we do get into that sense of communion it’s great, but it’s not a simple situation in any way.
It is similar, but I don’t think it’s so much a racial issue as much as an issue of morality, seeing women interacting with men before marriage as inappropriate to some degree.
I do hope something positive will happen between Susana and I, but I’m not going to let myself be paralyzed by wanting that, any more than I would have allowed myself to became too attached to being with Pegah romantically.
Yes, she told me that a traditional Iranian wedding would be arranged.
I tend to be hesitant with anyone before having a clear sense of their personality, motivations and intent. It’s not that I don’t have a great deal of respect for Pegah, mind you, just that I was aware of the precariousness of the situation.
She was open about the situation with her family and a number of other things. She didn’t keep anything from me that I can tell. She was just overwhelmed by the prospect of being torn between not wanting to hurt her family and wanting to pursue something romantic, I believe.
boo… 🙁
I’m so sorry it ended up this way, but atleast you were a little bit prepaired?
Re: boo… 🙁
Yeah, I did anticipate this happening. She was always clear about her situation and I respect that she maintained that honesty.