Ice-Numbed

I feel like I’m walking through a world of mud… everything seems so slow and without purpose…. tomorrow I need to write…. this week will consist of writing and reading…. I need to take things in a vent as well….
Where would I be without music? Certainly far from sane. It’s my greatest comfort now…. like each breath I take, each note, each word, each song, keeps me alive in this sea of mud.
“I need the world to be controlled”
We finally have snow here… white is everywhere…. it should be beautiful…. but it seems to have no appeal now.
I’ve gone to sleep so much earlier than I am used to this weekend. I’m a night person but for some reason I feel the need to sleep here… too warm, I guess. Heat only makes me want to sleep.
“I need a reason to believe in the next homecoming”
It’s time for me to sleep now… I’ll be wishing for dreams of the one I love….. I’ve had only a handful of dreams in my life and all of her….. all within the past two months…. I really do love her more than I thought I could love anyone….. And she makes me feel so good to just be able to talk to her. I miss Ashley so much….
Goodnight everyone.
Sweet dreams.