Cathartic

I just cried for the first time in what must be months… I just was feeling very depressed… with just the overwhelming nature of my life right now…. there are so many things about myself that I just don’t like…. how I’ve become lazy, complacent… just things building up… school work, financial things, the future in general… Finally after about half an hour I felt compelled to read Ashley’s journal and read this: ( http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?itemid=24037887 ) Just reading how much she really does love me made all the other things seem so insignificant, so ready to be overcome. It was just such an overpowering feeling, I guess…. so opposite to what I had been feeling that tears just streamed down my face….I love her with all my heart, she is absolutely the most important and wonderful thing in my life. I really can not imagine not having her in my life. She is so amazing, so perfect… I will always love her…
I feel as ready to sleep now as I was unable to just half an hour ago… goodnight