Tonight really wasn’t that bad once the overly lame awards were given out. I swear, every one was about getting plastered or one of their sexual exploits(or lack thereof). It was sickening in some ways, how all the people in this house seem so into those… I can’t help but feel even more out of place when they are going on about all of that. The food was alright but I swear I have nothing in common with these people when it comes to my actions and what I believe in. I’ll be very glad to be in an appartment with people with a similar mindset to mine next year.
😀 I was able to talk to Ashley tonight. I am so lucky to have met her. She is so amazing, beautiful, talented(just look at this), caring, generally fun to be with and she never fails to make me happy. I swear there’s something magical about her smile, it always warms my heart to see her smile. She’s my dream girl, she’s everything I have ever wanted.
Since I met Ashley I feel better about myself in general, I look forward to every day some much more, not to say that I was depressed before, but there was certainly a bit of it there. I just feel more motivated to do well at everything, to do things to improve myself, to become more the person I’ve wanted to be, to really strive further to prove to myself that I can do what I need to in order to have a good life. And even if I don’t succede at anything I know I finally have that drive, that reason to do it…
This all may not have made any sense at all, but that’s alright I suppose, just count it all as the results of lack of sleep. I’ll go now to sleep, in hopes of finding a dream…
😀 I was able to talk to Ashley tonight. I am so lucky to have met her. She is so amazing, beautiful, talented(just look at this), caring, generally fun to be with and she never fails to make me happy. I swear there’s something magical about her smile, it always warms my heart to see her smile. She’s my dream girl, she’s everything I have ever wanted.
Since I met Ashley I feel better about myself in general, I look forward to every day some much more, not to say that I was depressed before, but there was certainly a bit of it there. I just feel more motivated to do well at everything, to do things to improve myself, to become more the person I’ve wanted to be, to really strive further to prove to myself that I can do what I need to in order to have a good life. And even if I don’t succede at anything I know I finally have that drive, that reason to do it…
This all may not have made any sense at all, but that’s alright I suppose, just count it all as the results of lack of sleep. I’ll go now to sleep, in hopes of finding a dream…