Surrounded

Well, last night I tried to fall asleep when Ashley went to bed, some time around 1…. I just couldn’t seem to do it. Maybe I had gotten too much sleep on the weekend or something like that… But I just kept trying to sleep…. occasionally coming online to see if I could find some song or whatever to help me sleep….. Eventually, around 4 I decided to get some Chantal Kreviazuk songs and they seemed to work…. I looked at the clock last just as it reached 5:00. I slept through my first 3 classes but did manage to make it to Calculus… I have to pass this exam, I just have to….. So classes are now over for the term. Only exams, an essay and a Java program have to be finished. Still a lot of work to be done in the next two days. I’m tempted to self-destruct sometimes and just give up. But I have reason not to fail and reason to survive…..
So now I’m slowly working through some work…. trying to find the resolve and ambition to do it. That’s the worst part of this all… I don’t feel like writing a huge java program…. it’s not fun at all. I’m sorry, I just can’t find the joy in being a “code monkey” lol Oh well. I will finish it all and do well. I’m always good at surviving.
I guess that is all for now….. Goodnight

Dear Life
Words: Chantal Kreviazuk
Music: Chantal Kreviazuk & Raine Maida

Ah ah ah ah …

You’ll never know how you run me down
And I don’t even need you, no
And still you keep me holdin’ on
Just for dear life

Ah ah ah ah ah…

If you live a loveless life
Just blame it on me
On the count of oblivion
I’m guilty

Ah ah ah ah ah …

No we’ve never been away from here
So we’ll try to lose ourselves again
No we’ve never been away from here
So we’ll try to lose ourselves again

I’m over playin’ with your massive ego
Still I keep on holdin’ on for dear life

Ah ah ah ah ah …

No we’ve never been away from here
So we’ll try to lose ourselves again
No we’ve never been away from here
So we’ll try to lose ourselves again

When you’re cold and under the covers
Does it ever bother you
Do you remember how warm the truth is
How can you live without it

No we’ve never been away from here
So we’ll try to lose ourselves again
No we’ve never been away from here
So we’ll try to lose ourselves again

We’ve never been away from here
So we’ll try to lose ourselves again
We’ve never been away from here
So we’ll try to lose ourselves again

Ah ah ah ah ah ….

Far Away
Words & Music: Chantal Kreviazuk

Make me believe in you
Honestly for real; one thing true
Take me in, in your arms
Wandering alone seems so far

Let me know that you made it as far as forever
Let me know that you hear when I cry if you can

You’re far away from me
You’re far away from me
You’re far away from me
Come a little closer
Just a little

Let me know heaven sees
Shines on life our memories ….
Make me feel all that you are
Angel child or a radiant star
‘Cause I know that we’ll meet up again in forever
Let me know you’ll be waiting for me in the end

You’re far away from me
You’re far away from me
You’re far away from me
Come a little closer
Just a little

You’re far away from me
You’re far away from me
You’re far away from me
Come a little closer
Just a little

Just a little

Green Apples
Words & Music: Chantal Kreviazuk

You’re toast and jam
And you are cotton candy
You’re double rainbows
Beside a settin’
You’re wood burnin’ outside
There’s a fire glowin’
You’re sweet as green apples
You must be the one

You bring me
To the heart of a golden man
You bring me
To the natural truth
You take me
To the solid hollow
And keep me sailing
This ocean of youth

That’s why you’re toast and jam
And you are cotton candy
You’re double rainbows
Beside a setttin’ sun
You’re wood bunin’ outside
There’s a fire glowin’
You’re sweet as green apples
You must be the one

So take me to an altar of diamonds
And run with me through sheets of jungle rain
Show me all your manly mystery
And let me heal your beautiful pain

Be my island in crowds of faces
My oasis
Be there

And lead me to the holy water
And introduce me to the place you are from
Wherever you go you know I will follow
So take me there and I will come
I will come

You’re toast and jam
And you are cotton candy
You’re double rainbows
Beside a settin’ sun
You’re wood burnin’ outside
There’s a, a fire glowin’
You’re my sweet green apples
You must be the one

I’m sayin’ you’re toast and jam
And you are cotton candy
You’re double rainbows
Beside a settin’ sun
You’re wood burnin’ outside
There’s a fire glowin’
You’re sweet as green apples
You must be the one
You’re sweet as green apples
You must be the one

Sweet as green apples
You must be the one

Imaginary Friend
Words & Music: Chantal Kreviazuk

It scares me to speak my mind
It might sound self-absorbed
I don’t say half of what I think
I wonder what I’m thinkin’ for

I’m smellin’ dead flowers
And listenin’ to the walls again
I’m drinkin’ from a leaky faucet
And writin’ with this dried up pen

Wish I still had my imaginary friend

And who needs to listen, well …
What do I have to sell
Everyone’s just waitin’ for their own turn
Kinda like show and tell

I’m smellin’ dead flowers
And listenin’ to the walls again
I’m drinkin’ from a leaky faucet
And writin’ with this dried up pen

Wish I still had my imaginary friend
Wish I still had my imaginary friend

Someone to listen, someone to laugh
Someone to cry at the right time

I’m smellin’ dead flowers
And listenin’ to the walls again
I’m drinkin’ from a leaky faucet
And writin’ with this dried up pen
You know that I’m smellin’ dead flowers
And listenin’ to the walls
Drinkin’ from a leaky faucet
And writin’ with this dried up pen

Wish I still had my imaginary friend
Wish I still had my imaginary friend

And I would call him up
But I don’t remember his name